aunt agony!

today marks the last day of work at firmenich. yes, my last day! schools reopening. well, you can say that my life is sad cos i only haf like half a day to enjoy on friday, but if i were to speak positively, i can say.. qianru has been GAINFULLY EMPLOYED!! *talks like government officials*

ya man!

knwing that my last day was drawing closer and closer, this week, everything sentence starts with ‘last’.

like you know, usually we’ll walk along this wheww-super-long-stretch of road to go to the common eatery to buy lunch. when we walk along that stretch of road, its usually super sunny, super hot and windy too! why is there wind?? cos the huge vehicles will zoom past us with huge momentum, dragging with them layers and layers of air that causes some ‘uplifting of skirts’. hahhaa. thats why, smart girls like me WEAR JEANS!! hahha. wanna ‘uprooot’ my skirt???? WAIT LONG LONG!! *thinks too much*

no lar jus kiddingg! so this week, tues, and wed, my tots were like ‘oh no. my last time walking here. i gotta enjoy the artificially induced wind!! enjoy the sun!! enjoy the fooood!’

so saddening.

then go back to the lab, wear the lab coat also marchiam ‘oh no.. one of my last time wearing firmenich lab coats!!! *tearsss* ‘

then keep raw mat samples also ‘oh my! last time last time!! better keep properly! =( ‘

all the ‘my last time’. haha i guess u all are properly more concerned abt ur ‘first time’-s instead.

JUST KIDDING. i mean, first time can mean alot of things rite. like first time eating FRIED RICE??? or, first time taking rupiah coins as sg coins??

that was LAME! phews.

so ytd to prepare for my mighty Last Day, i baked brownies. wenta zack’s place to bake. he’s very kindness man!! let me use his oven. and he was very nice and hospitable. gotta thank him big time. haha ytd thr was a baking disaster. i wanted to bake brownies. but his baking tray was super huge. too huge to make brownies. in fact, the brownie mix that lay on the tray was barely 1.4cm thick. like brownie biscuito lo. so his bro suggested stacking the brownies together.

and yes, we did it! zack sponsored his newly opened nutella for me to use as cement to glu up the separate pieces. phews! super high sugar content.

god

bless

and today was soo soo soo busy! thr was filing, thr was experiments, there were samples to keep. i felt a bit overwhelmed. and i haf to search for my missing labcoat. thing is, i brought my personal labcoat to work and decided to get the company to help me wash. but my labcoat doesnt haf the firmenich logo and i guess it was thrown away. oops! aiya okay lar, i dumb lar. =P hee!

but at 4.30, i couldnt do it animore! i cant do it!

i hurriedly ran to the pantry to heat up the brownies. and gave them to my colleagues. then i was back in time to keep one pair of samples. happy

my supervisor said that i haf done well in my job and asked me to consider coming back for vacation job nex time! =) i feel quite happy cos i think i corked up alot of experiment readings. hengs she duno, man!

*covers my ass*

i love the common canteen’s food. i like the minced meat noodles, ipoh hor fun, chicken cutlet rice, herbal chicken soup, fried noodles, dragonfruit juice, and most importantly, YONG TAU FOO! *

i am SO GONNA GO BACK TO EAT IT

why did i suddenly talk abt food?? haha was talking abt farewell stuff right

oh and my lab supervisor-attach, called winnie, said thank you to me.

althou it is a simple thank you, i felt really happy. she said i haf been of great help to the lab. its really nice to know. cos i felt i am just screwing things over and over again.

oh and u know, i wanted to give the brownies to the Safety Uncle as well as the Moustache Uncle (i haf no idea how to address them) but i wenta the production area and couldnt find them =(

hard luck.

good bye firmenich!!!

my bag and clothes smell of you!!

as the famous saying goes!!! "women are nothing but trouble" (hahhaha i mean, bitchy guys always like to say girls are nonsense, trouble, shitheads etc, but eventually, they get killed by girls, too. accidentally or coincidentally)

i was walking home fr the mrt station. yu knoe, knock off, very bored, so started to think of LAME STUFf!!

i rationalised a few ’still rather logical’ reasons (haha! ya la! 1st class reasoning skills, dint u knoe?!?!)

1) on the road, it appears that reckless drivers are usually women. i have seen women drivers tailgating, changing lanes abruptly, accelerating like marchiam initial D in carparks, accelerating at pedestrians to scare them out of their wits then E-brake(not purposely of cos), road / lane hogging by travelling at 60km/h at right or centre lanes (as if their grandpas own the highways! yeah! )  as a woman myself, i would feel that travelling at 60km/h is okay (hahha. oops!) but for guys, who are more impatient like my daddy. that is a serious no-no. it makes them wanna overtake. it makes their blood rush and they just wanna !WTF! get off from the road, woman!!! so they accelerate and overtake once their patience reach the limits. unfortunately, they either make some misjudgements or  other drivers/bikers do not haf enuff time to react to them so accidents happen. in other words, women are not the ones who speed, they are not the ones directly involved in accidents. but they are commonly the ones who induce accidents. look at the papers, alot of automobile accidents involve men. not women! as a sexist, you may say that that is because men are usually richer so they tend to own cars therefore the likelihood of men getting into accidents is higher. actually, that is possible too =D

2) love related issues. men always say that pretty ladies are like ‘troubled waters’. they get you into deep shit. come! gif u some ‘deep-shit-face-mask’!!!

type A : if u flip papers like wan3 bao4 in the past, u’ll notice that old ppl who gianz3 those young and pretty ladies, they end up very miserable. either they die during sex (due to generous usage of viagra or too much excitement, i dun knoe) or they get conned of their CPF by their beloved mistresses. hiaks. trouble waters!!!

type B: some pretty girls are like vases. its good for display, but you cant expect anithing practical out of it. completely lethal! you tell them A, they smile back and say ‘yeah, i know wad u mean. B right??’ then you tell them, ‘why not bang ur head against the wall?!?’ and they smile back and say ‘alright!!’ then they start to bang your head against the wall

and then, u realise that u’re short of breath, ur main arteries wana burst wanna burst lidat, ur capillaries give way… and… no lar, not that kua zhang.  just kidding!

so, why pretty girls are trouble?!?

firstly, there is a likelihood that your BROTHER may fall for this same pretty girl too. scientific research has shown once and again that men are visual creatures. u nv know when u and ur brother (i dun mean biological ones, but those kinda ‘come on loar bung!’ that kind) will fall for the same one. then, things arent the same anithing, the bung-ship is broken. i mean, if its a slice of cake, u can alwys split it, but u cant share a human being!

secondly,

okay i cant continue this animore. super shag. bye bye!!

*writes a half hearted entry and has the audacity to post it*

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my brother is back from japan! i am so happy =D he is finally back! i like to talk cock w him, and see him catwalk. his model poses. his slim silhoutte is definitely what girls dream for! guess wad did be bring back? he brought back some japanese confectionery, bought each of us a gift, and and also lots of souvenirs fm Soka university for the ntu student division frens. he’s so fortunate to be able to save enuff money to go to japan for a 1month internship. im v glad for my brother.

its great!

he bought me a tube dress that can be doubled up as a long skirt. its a blue checker skirt. he says that there’s dis checkers craze in japan now *shocked! and its the MOST hip design now. oh wells! i dun feel so! probably cos im ’stationed’ in singapore thats y i dun feel it!! haha the dress doesnt have to be ironed. clver brother. my brother likes to buy clothes for me that neednt be ironed. like the beige skirt that i have. its also the kind the-more-crumpled-the-more-cool kinda skirt. oops! he sure knows me well enuff!

*LAZY BONE!

oh! and he also bought instant, ready made coffee that are contained in plastic containers.he was soo soo soo eager to let us try the coffee. once he reached home, he immediately wenta prepare the beverage for us. the coffee has a unique taste to it. i have never tasted that before, and i cant aliken the taste to any known food stuff / drinks that we could haf consumed before.

he says that in japan, people usually drink coffee in the morning. but because brewing coffee is such a chore, they have produced packaged coffee. just add some milk to it and u are ready to enjoy the coffee. but! its cold coffee. you gotta store in the refrigerator and it can only be kept for 2 days. well, good enuff! i cant imagine myself keeping coffee for moer than 2 days. coffee is my FAVOURITE beverage!! haha but, the tot of taking cold coffee early in the morning seems very li jing to me. tea time, perhaps!

HA! then he offered us the confectionery. its weird lar their tau3 sar1. doesnt seem very tau-sar-ish. man. then my father told my brother ‘eh kor, buy me a dog’.

my brother was like ‘huh? fking no link!!!’ (he dint say it, but i know he was thinking of that. precisely. he just gave a very puzzled look)

and my father said ‘ come on lar mervin, gimme a dog so that i can feed the dog the tau sar pastry~ ‘
hahha dam funny lar!!

oh, and he brought back a traditional japanese toy. it is very fun to play with. it’s a toy that trains up one’s reflexes.

very fun! *thumbs up* once i am proficient in it and my brothers play until sian alr i can lend my frens. yay. =D let them play !!

haha but come to think of it, bringing a toy to school seems very absurd. if my frens wanna play, must make it mandatory that they give the look like ‘eh i dun gif a damn abt the toy lar’ then can look more “cool and adult”. alternatively, can play in the toilet. hahha close doors alr no one know lor.

*hardcore!!!

well, my brother brought back things that are tangible, and things that are not tangible as well. things such as, a change in perspective and his way of conduct. it’s something that cant be touched, as its not an object. but its something that can be felt. he told us that when he was at japan, he felt so much warmth, enthusiasim and energy frm the locals, especially the soka university students.

they were so hospitable. when they knew that my brother was coming, they welcomed him and brought him arnd for food, to buy books, and to visit hot springs. he felt v shocked cos they dun even know him, but they treated him so well, as if he is part of a family. ”family” is the word. it’s unity, harmony and all things that generates energy.

they are also very helpful. when they knew that my ah gong was in a critical condition, they all also gathered at some1’s house to chant for my ah gong’s medical condition to improve. my brother said he felt it was v heart warming. whn i heard it, i was filled with disbelief. they called up their friends, neighbours and all of them met up in the evening to chant with absolute resolve to help in whatever ways they can. they also encouraged my brother and gave him comfort. imagine urself helping a ’stranger’s grandfather’ chant for 1 hr. you must have the heart of a buddha to be able to be able to do that. to probably postpone what you’ve originally planned, to help out some1. some1 u do not know.

i am touched. when my bro said that, he sounded very moved, too. i cant imagine my brother being touched. (finally there are people who were able to move him to tears). they also helped him find cheaper air tickets to fly back, made many calls to travelling agencies and airline companies. just for him, just for a ’stranger’. perhaps in their world, there is no such thing as ’stranger’. perhaps, every1 belongs to their family.

an extended family.

i always like to think about things that i like. i mean, when i haf the free time that is.

you know, people change. so do the things that they like change.

in the past, i used to like loud colors. just look at the clothes i used to buy and the clothes i wear now. i’d say no to dull colors like brown, black or beige.

but as i age (haha, yes lar) i start to appreciate things that nv caught my attention in the past.

i used to detest pink alot. i tot pink is a superbly gross color that only bimbos would sport. but now, i start to appreciate pink. in fact, i think i love most colors now. with the exception of orange(all shades of orange), and probably some shades of purple and i realy, dun , like, TEAL.

same goes for ribbons and butterflies. i used to find them very ’sissy’ since i was once a tom boyish kid. i felt that ribbons and butterfly prints on clothes symbolize weakness and lack of ‘brains’ i.e. bimbo. haha but now.. ermmm i sorta find them nice. OOPS!

in the past, i used to think striking brown and blonde hair look nice. but now, i dont! hahha!! on the contrary, i think that darker colors are better. makes an asian lady more feminine. agree?

similarly for skin colors. i used to like myself tanned. being tanned made me feel confident and good abt myself. but now, i actually avoid the sun, wear shades, wear cap or use the umbrella, and apply lip balm! haha. i wanna be fair. i think girls are better off looking fair than looking tanned.

all things nice:

1) nicely decorated scrapbooks with lots of photos ( i dint haf the habit of keeping one in the past)

2) swatch watches (this is not differnt frm the past. i have always liked swatch watches)

3) nerdy teachers/lecturers/tutors (i do not like hip and happening teachers. my impression of a marvellous teacher is one who is very nerdy and geeky like mr kwek eng yeow. i love eng yeow)

4) mickey mouse and chip’n'dale (i used to hate mickey mouse!!! i used to like winnie the pooh and his/her frens. btw, is winnie a he or a she?? )

5) bags (this is a serious and recurring problem. i dint use to be captivated by bags. i mean, i could use a bag for super super long without buying new ones. but now, i simply CANT resist the temptation of bags. victim of commercialism. ta ma de)

6) shoes (thisis a new fetish. i am startg to like shoes. i think it is VERY SCARY. i have not bought any shoes eversince 6months ago( i bought one for laboratory days), but i can feel the P.E (potential energy) building within me. it is growing and i guess its consuming me! i m afraid when the dam gate opens, the flood waters of splurging will occur. mannn..)

7)hunky celebrities like RAIN and TEH PING HUAY (okay, i mean, tay ping hui. i haf always felt that hunky guys are dam disgusting. u noe lar, i like chopsticks. but now i see hunky celebs like rain and T.P.H i feel that they are desirable celebrities!! *thumbs up* actually i still like chopsticks. what i mean is, now i no longer ostracise the more bulky celebs. skinny?? ALSO CAN. muscular?? ALSO CAN!!!

reading books (i feel happy now when i read. even if its one page, two pages, or three. when i read i feel very happy!! i feel happy to be able to own a book and to read it. i dint use to feel such simple joys)

9) going home early to meddle arnd in the kitchen (i think this shows i m seriously growing old. i find it very fun and engaging. die lar. gg to be lao gu po! *kraozzz*

10) putting on make up. (i know people dont like me to put make up. alot of ppl have tried their utmost efforts to dissuade me fm putting on make up but i still like putting. duno if has become a habit. or do i really find it nice. i just wake up, brush teeth, bathe, then anihow apply some make up and off i go)

11) round/circular stuff (i seem to haf a fetish for things that are round. i dun mean bellies.for instance, hmm buttons, polka dots, super rounded cups, beads, face of a watch. i dun like angular stuff. like squares or rectangles. thats why u dun see me wearing square faced watches! )

12) roses ( its weird. i used to think roses are for ah mas. i liked tulips and lillies. women are indeed fickle. )

okay i think this entry is getting very bimbotic. GG TO SLEEP!

just now while i was in a daze, i tot of something really interesting. its gonna be a cool commercial idea.

i guess, ladies, you all must be tired of wearing looooose clothes. it seems like the quality of fabrique is deproving exponentially. topshop, zara, dorothy perkins, miss selfridge, mango. if you realise, their company strategy seems to be shifting towards costs reduction. that explains the poor quality of fabrics that their clotehs are made out of. after probably TWO washes, oopsies, ur clothes can no longer be body hugging. far from it. it becomes very loose and cause u to expose certain parts of ur body. u know where. especially for victims of poor genes like myself, i haf no boobs to fill up those gaps which my washed clothes haf left me. virtually nothing!! so, i am forced to expose my not-so-desirable, and totally non existent boobs. hello, my profession is student, not profession hooker!

oh wells. i can give a logical explanation for that. for having minimal assets. the nutrients went to my brain!! *right!! believe this.

okay, so lets get into the topic proper. so what is the magical product which i haf tot of??
i was thinking of this totally awesome liquid which when applied to fabrique, it causes the fabric to shrink by probably…10–15%. which means, to revert it back to its original state. this liquid will come in a metal bottle that’s preferably inert and resistant to such shrikage. the bottle cap will act as a brush. imagine, nail lacquer bottles. something like that. so you can apply the liquid on clothes with ease. also, the property of this liquid is that it will ONLY shrink areas which you have applied the liquid on.
for instance, the collar area of ur top is loose. so you just apply a fair amount of the liquid on the collars, and only the collar becomes tightened.
good idea?? hahha! but it is quite impractical.
jus think of the number of fabrics that are readily available on the market. okay lets say out of 50, 20 are prone to expandin after a few washes. these 20 fabrics are different , because, they are different. that sounded lame but its true! if we were to design a magical solution, it must act on a particular fabric fibre or a particular sequence of biomolecule that is common for all 20 of them, which is obviously not possible. for it to take effect. if not, you may haf to buy 20 different solutions, for 20 diff kind of fabrics. that is totally not worth ur money.
in the first place, if you have bought clothes that are quite ex, chances are, the merchants would have invested in high thread counts fabrics. you wont get that kind of lousy quality if that is the case.
haha but actually, its kinda hard to say. like i haf a few tops which are rather ex. but i realise that the money has gone to feeding the label, and starving the quality.
ITS BAD!
i realise cotton clothes expand the most. if i can only design ONE solution, i guess the solution should be targetted at cotton fabric. its very comfortable, and because of its physical properties, its commonly chosen as a fabric to make clothes. so, investing in R&D for making shriking solutions for cotton is definitely worthwhile. i wouldnt mind spending a sum of money for that magic solution. better than me buiying a new top or sth right!

cotton fibres should be made up of amino acids. (i anyhow hamtam) if we can find out the sequence of amino acids which are commonly repeated, and is able to form disulphide bridges, (there may not be cysteine) for every 20 amino acids, probably reacing a 10–15% reduction in length/size is possible.

each disulphide bridge will form an OMEGA SIGN. you know? the one which we use as the symbol for units of electrical resistance? many many omega signs would mean that the entire length of the chain is effectively reduced. so tightening occurs. COOL.
but of cos, its just a very simplified thought. if the strains are criss cross, has helices, beta sheets, many many more, then all these will be further complicated.
okay, time to go bed.
NUITZ!