aunt agony!

last semester, i took up a module called human resource mgmt. althou i alw thought that the teacher was a cockster, he managed to sweep me off my feet when he said something v brilliant. something that nv came across my mind before. the difference bw entitlement and privilege.

thr is a difference between an ‘entitlement’ and ‘privilege’. alot of us behave as if certain things are ‘must have’s, and ‘ought-to-have’s. but is that really the case? are u sure that you ought to have certain things? or are u purely lucky that you once had some stuff, but lost them thereafter?

when we view something as an entitlement, it is akin to saying ‘hey, that is MINE. i should have it. no one can take it away from me because i haf the right to possess it’. well, you came into the world with nothing, and you WILL depart from this world with nothing too. nothing is truly YOURS.

yours

yOurs

Yours

when you start to have the mentality that you should have some stuff, you deserve better treatment, you really think these people who ‘took’ things away from yu are bastards/bastard-resses, think again.

in fact, i think that viewing things as if they are yr entitlement is a reflection of taking things for granted. taking things for granted is a disease, and a source of suffering. you only cherish them once you have lost them all. n you might ‘treasure’ them so much that you start faulting whoever ‘took’ them away from you. but, if you had made the conscious effort to protect, and keep wadeva belonged to you, would they have left?

playing the blame game is something considered a waste of time (to me ). no shoving of blame-s.

now, lets talk abt privilege! =)

when we are grateful to what we have, it IS a source of happiness. look no further, this moment is the moment to be happy. ppl always look to the future to be happy. they tell themselves. during hols i am surely happier. when i get attached, i will be happier, after i get married, i will be happier. after i haf kids, i will be happier, after i retire, i will be happier. why not say, after i enter the coffin, i will be happier? okay that is quite impossible. haha. enter coffin wanna emo also cant alr lox. =D

i think that when we are grateful to whatever things we have, wadeva responsibilities we hold, whatever frens we have, whatever shit experiences we’ve been thru, we can be happy.

yes we CAN.

jus look, do alot of ppl have the opportunity to study in a university? i guess, the answer is no. we are the fortunate bunch of bastards who have the privilege to study in a university. we must not only study for ourselves, but for people who have not been able to enter the university. if you do climb up the social ranks, please do something for the people who are suffering seriously bad karma. change their lives. i m not sure if i m able to be at that social position, but i would want to be that person who is able to contribute back. if i do die early, and i’m unable to do so, i hope that my frens will be the ones doing so.

haha okay i better stop writing. this entry seems aggressive. haha. WHOPS!

we’re always living day by day, taking for granted that we still have another day to live. its like a ‘duh’ thing to keep talking about things of tomorrow. it is like a ‘duh’ thing tt the person we care about can always live another 10, 20, 30 years. anw, it is a taboo to talk about death so our mind jus keeps on running away from the issue of death.

life is so unpredictable.. you wouldnt know when you’ll be struck with something. imagine urself being hit by a car, or having cancer. try to imagine that. hard to imagine, yes?

i must admit its hard for me to imagine that too cos we’re all too accustomed to thinking that our lives wil go on, and on, until we are tooo old to think, too old to move. until then, probably we would admit ‘we are too old, what can we do now?’

i will buy myself a coffin after i graduate and earned sufficient money. how long do you think a coffin can last? what if i buy it but i do not die within the next 15 years?

i think about my funeral more than any possible wedding. i think about what kind of funeral my parents would hold for me. i think about who would attend my funeral. i hope that during my funeral, my beloved friends, family, schoolmates, teacher, students or even acquaintances would attend it. i hope that they’ld want to see me one last time no matter how busy they are. 

if you were to attend my funeral, would you cry? if you were to speak some last words to the crowd, what would it be? would you feel that some1 important in your life is missing? would you miss my smile or my laughter when i m gone? would you be thr when i lie on the deathbed, shedding my last drop of happy tear to bid the world goodbye?

will i be remembered as a head-strong girl who have underachieved in life and living in self-denial?

would you visit my grave once in every ten years?

there are so many questions that i would like to know the answers to.

of course, i wouldnt know until the day i really die, and my spirit witnesses everything that happens. thinking about that, it makes me want to be the best that i can. to be a compassionate and loyal friend, to be one who’s always happy, proactive, and able to spread joy and hope to everyone around me. to be a good daughter and sister at home. for at the end of my life, i hope that people who attend my funeral are able to speak of positive things about me, to say that qianru has always been a girl who’s helpful, kind, sweet, forever understanding, compassionate and loyal.

please be there for my funeral.

haha!

u mus be thinking ‘why is qr writing abt the ideal man but not the ideal lady??’ haha, the ans is.. becos i m a girl/lady/woman/lao-zabor so i wont know the ans. haha or shld i make a guess?

1) obedient

2) hot bod and/or pretty face

3) kind

haha i dunno wad’s the yardstick for measurement of a gd gal but i think, those shld be the more common ones? and i dun fulfil that. not kind. i haf no hot bod. i cant b successfully obedient. ok i think it takes time to change. wait till i m 21 i tell u!! sure can fulfil that! (haha, i wish)

as the chinese saying goes ‘dang ju zhe mi’ which means the person who is exactly in the situation wil not know wad is going wrong! yes trust me! my chinese is pass one ok! so i seriously dunno wad guys wan

let’s talk abt the ideal man.

if u are a guy and u happen to read this entry, it is ur good karma! cos u are about to embark on a journey of crazy reaping of delicious benefits and great tips!

u gotta first fulfil the criteria of being a guy. if not, u may not be able to benefit from this entry. to check it u are a guy, please create a new tab, go to wikipedia.com to see what are the characteristics of a matured man. done??

alright! with that verification done, do read on!

if u wanna be that ideal guy

firstly, you need to be blessed with a good memory. some people are born with good memory. but, their memory is used for memorizing game codes, cheats, and all those nonsense.u name it (it=nonsense) they memorize it. or, they use it for memorizing car models, animae, and mainly school work. they memorize the nominal pipe diameters, the page whr they can find charts and tables, they learn how to use the calculator to do integration. Seemingly, these provide more kick than memorizing the date u all first knew each other. who her frens are. what happened on the first date. what the girl likes/dislike. her hobbies. her chronic problems. what she wore on the first date. how to do a boggie dance to make her smile. whr to find the stuff she likes. how to bake brownies/cookies (whichever she prefers) if u can memorize things like that, i can assure u that ur gf will be SUPERBLY amazed by u. okay i realise i haf used the wrong word. the word i used is ‘can’. of cos, u ‘can’ cos u seriously haf the ‘ability to’ memorize such stuff. it just boils down to whether u find these things worth memorizing. if u dun find it worthwhile of your time, then its okay lar. i mean, life is much more than jus a girl. probably thats wad u feel, and when u read the prev sentence, u mus haf nodded heavily. ha! i know. life goes on, the birds still chirp, the earth still rotates. yes, we all know that. ;D

secondly, you mus not be too concerned about your looks. girls loathe guys who alw need to haf a glimpse of themselves in the mirror. look at their chiselled bod, yea. and u cant be shopping all the time also. once a while is fine, but if u shop too much, the girl will haf a sense of insecurity. like, why on earth is a man spending so much time on his appearance and trying to look good??girls alw like to feel as if they are of 1st priority. looks definitely mus take a backseat!!

haf a talent.it may be a small talent. try not to be talented in telling yellow jokes. u get wad i mean? u can be talented in math. like for my bf. he does mental sum EXTREMELY accurately and quickly. then when we go out, i will take out my celly and use the calc function. he calcs dam fast. i think got x 10 my speed. haha okay. that is really attractive. guo ran is chinese high boy. u can be good at magic tricks too. but u knoe, thr are some xia4 jian4 magic tricks, and some purely entertaining ones. dun try to shove some coins down ur throat and make it appear under ur skin. thats very gross. i think u might lose the girl instead of jioing her lo. haha. serious. or make flowers appear from the back of their ears (or n. you know, things dont work this way. if u do so, the girl will be thinking ‘wad the heck. has he been using this trick in the jiang1 hu2 to trick xiau mei meis?!?’

last tip: do talk about your ex girlfren. if u say ‘oh she’s just some1 i used to like. nothing much. i haf nothing to say about her’

if u are such a person, please. heartless guys, girls can tell! u think we blind isit. and they wont trust you. so, be open. talk about the girl whom u last liked. and anithing she would want to know. if ur ex gf/fling/girl-whom-u-liked-but-didnt-get-together msgs u on msn, let ur gf see the chat windows. this will greatly boost the relationship and the trust associated with it. and, dont screw the girl in front of yr new girl. for instance, if ur ex gf calls u on the cell phone, dont say ‘hey i with gf now. fcuk off la’. if i am the girl, i’ll be wide eyed and say ‘no, YOU fuck off.’ of cos, some girls will be gloating and saying ‘whooas! how suave! screw another girl in front of me! thats way too cool!’ if thats wad u think, girl, u are on the wrong track!! go back to the right one!

exhibit traits of a filial son. start to do household chores, and help out in the family. i think this is by far, the surest way of winning a girl’s heart. of cos,  u try not to bust the girl x10 when u 2 are supposed to go on dates, jus becos u haf some family related stuff. for instance, cousin A’s chalet, cousin B’s dinner, cousin C’s zouk-gathering, aunty A’s lunchdate, help biao-jiu-mu catch a rendezvous.

ok! i tink my creative juices arent flowing properly today. shall stop now.

see ya soon frens!

jus now i went out for supper with my parents and di di. we were out to celebrate my getting A+ for HRM (haha i initiated tt) and i treat my family to supper!

we went to bukit timah to eat. u know, the place opposite beauty world? yes, thr.

we were cracking lame jokes and everything was fine until my mom started talking abt this ‘magic mirror’ thingy.

it was NOT fine.

she told us that she saw this lady selling ‘magic mirrors’ to ppl saying that it has multi purpose

it serves medical purposes such as being able to treat temporary deafness

and if you place your bottle of soy sauce on the piece of mirror, the soy sauce becomes sweet and is not salty (i mean, wad kinda soy sauce is that? not salty? COME ON!!)

then i was qt pissed so i asked my mom ‘mom, why? why can the piece of mirror make the soy sauce not salty?? it doesnt make sense! ‘

then she said ‘cos its magic mirror. it is able to absorb the salt content, do you know?’

i said ‘its impossible. how can the mirror absorb the salt content???’

then she insisted that it is possible. if idun believe i can try.

so i asked her, how much are the mirrors.

she said, 990 per piece.

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its the most expensive mirror ive ever seen

and wad’s most worrying is that my mom seems to beleive. i m afraid that she buys them.

and u know wad, the mirrors are sold in pairs

i mena, pairs!!

that means 1980 dollars!

pleasee…….she was alr conned by dongfang billy to buy a 1.5K blender.now, its magic mirrors.

how can this be???