aunt agony!

this is life. in life, you cant get everything you want. you may strive very hard, so hard that certain important things are lost in the process. certain things that are lost are non-recoverable. i have lost many things, including my prized dignity

for every decision that you make, you lose something simultaneoulsy. yes, its simultaneous. you cant have the best of both worlds. know why?

because, this is life.

life itself doesnt just mean a beating heart. it also means many other things.

a person who have never experienced heartache can never empathize with others. eyes that have shed countless tears are able to see the world in a better light. hearts that have been torn are toughened when they recover.

i nearly lost myself.

i nearly lost everything in my life

but i am glad, i did not.

through life’s ups and downs, my eyes have shown me the most precious and reliable things in life. certain things are good to have ,but not necessary for happiness. girls, please read this and believe me. i am not out here to mess up your life, but its always good to know that ur frens are always the most dependable. i will be there for you, and fight any injustice that you might face. i will. for all that you all have done for me, i am so grateful, i promise that i must lead my life with such force that no matter what falls upon us, we are able to challenge the difficulties life face. the uncertainties, the injustice and other simply-fcuked-up stuff.

life is a process of toughening oneself.

my life was given to me by my mom (ok, and my dad as well). it belongs to my mom. i have no say over robbing it away.

i have been such a failure to have nearly given up a precious life. if i am gone, i am very sure that the people who would be shedding tears over my death would be the ones i didnt want to hurt. on the contrary, the person whom i hope would regret/shed tears would not do so. i know.. sad? not exactly. every1 has the right to choose their response to a situation

the mismatch between the action and the attained result shows how futile the effort would have been.

i have been blessed with a rather smooth sailing life, so much so that i have taken many things in life for granted. good frens, good education, good living environment, etc. and, amazingly, i am still not satisfied! what more can i ask for?

i cant take all these things and thereafter vanish from earth without repaying back the debts of gratitude. thank you my dear frens. i love you all.