aunt agony!

i haf been experiencing PMS (pre menstrual syndrome) for quite some time, and it’s really getting on my nerves! luckily its not tt serious now.

i become tired very easily, and concuss for 8 hrs everyday, for near 1 wk. that means, loss of working hours and huge sacrifice in my productivity, u know! (uh, ok actually when i m awake, nothing much gets done anyway)

and another thing, probably more serious that the former, is that water doesnt come out. i experience huge accumulation of water for like near one wk!! i drink 2 cups, only 0.5 cups are expelled out (ok, that sounded crude) then i just keep accumulating, and accumulating. well, if it accumulates at somewhr which is highly deficient in materials(i shall not say whr!!) , i DUN MIND. but it accumulates at my limbs area, making me look far from anoerexic. just look like some fatty bum. and sumore i sleep 8 hrs. i appear like some useless bum.

//*o if u happen to sleep 8 hrs, i dun mean tt u are a bum!!! *panic* i mean, i cant sleep 8 hrs with all the work piling up. *//

I also get pissed off easily and scold ppl multiple F’s.

its very bad. i cant stop those Fs. its just like a duan4 le3 xian4 de3 zhu1 zi3. keeps coming out. mayb i shld consider changing it to words like ‘fishballs’ or ‘fudge’ or .. idunno, ‘flamingo’?! haha

for instance ‘fcuk la u!’ –> ‘u fishball la!!!’

also, i experience storage of body heat, and will haf ulcers, pimples, sore throat, and many more. i’m now experiencing inflammation in my throat area. its pain. when i cough i can taste a little blood. i think must be i cough until too vigorous. shld chill it. man.

just now, when i was on my way to tuition, my throat suddenly hurts alot and i started coughing. once, and thats it. my uterus lining started to break down and i ….

didnt… bring my ‘essentials’.

shella. stained, and cui-ded.

i went back home to gt reinforcement (i.e. the essentials)

it was a long and arduous journey. like gg to the west to collect scriptures lidat.

ok, i realise that i m talking rot.

just now on the train, while i was listening to some songs, i started thinking abt wad ikeda sensei said. he said that couples usually fall out of each other, and break up because they expect too much out of the other person, and fail to understand the person. bt, they do not realise that everything started, with the couples being strangers.

couples started out from strangers.as they start out from strangers, the relationship is the sweetest, because they begin to learn, to understand, and to compromise. everything abt the other person seems so wonderful and beautiful. but as time passes, expectations are imposed on the other party. understanding ceases, and assumptions replace continual understanding.

people are complex. people are unpredictable. doesnt mean that u know that 20% of the other person, u can based on that 20% to make assumptions, to make predicted decisions, to make expectations. we all started out as strangers, and must always remember this. there’s always something for u to understand, for u to learn in order for u to appreciate the other person more. u can never know the person 100%, therefore, keep understanding and learning.

everyday is a fresh beginning. so, start understanding and knowing ur partner as if its the beginning of the relationship. maintain the courtesy, keep smiling, keep learning. cut down on ur ‘i think u should’ and ‘why arent u … ??" because those just dont work.

alright. i think my english is a little lousy and u may not know what i m driving at. but its ok!! my break time is up. see you!

guys and gals, please take care!! dun be like me(germs spreader)